Thursday, April 17, 2014


"To share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable; to make yourself vulnerable is to show your strength." Criss Jami

Last week I was presented with the opportunity to share part of my story that I don't often talk about.  Depression.  I didn't exactly know why God was asking me to do it before hand but I followed His lead anyhow.

I opened up and shared how motherhood is a lonely place sometimes.  The first few months with Lydia I often felt alone.  She was my first and I thought motherhood would come naturally, when it didn't I didn't know what to do.  I struggled.

Then again when Tariku came home.  The struggle that came with those first few months was intense.  I was so angry.  Angry that Tariku was harder then hard.  Angry that I was isolated.  Angry that I "did it to myself by opening my home to adoption".  

Talking about depression and being open has made me understand now more then ever that I was not alone, others struggle too.  Last week I didn't understand why God would want me to share this part of my journey, it is not a pretty section.  However, since sharing my struggles more then a handful of people have opened up to me about their struggles too.  

When we open up and become vulnerable we invite others to do the same, causing our friendships to become deeper. It makes us more aware of how we can help each other.  It makes us understand that we all struggle and that none of us are alone.  It makes us understand how to better love. 

I am thankful God gave me the opportunity.  Even when the opportunity is hard and I stand shaky.

Friday, April 11, 2014

.meet kiki and nugget.

Today we got two new members added to our family.  Meet Nugget and Kiki (short for Teryaki).  They are both four week old chicks and should be grown enough to start laying sometime in August.   The younger kids are already smitten with the baby chicks and I am excited to introduce the older boys to them after school.

As for our older hens, they are doing well.  In the past two weeks they have started to lay eggs on a more regular basis, I think it is because the weather is warmer.  They have total personalities which is funny.  Penny, our golden one, is easy to hold and is compliant with the kids.  Tyson, our black and white hen, is skid-dish around everyone.  

Now I am off to clean up their house and hold a baby chick or two.

Introducing Kiki

Introducing Nugget

Asher with Penny.

Our grown hens, Tyson and Penny.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

.my weekend in nashville.

This past weekend I got to meet up with many friends, and adoptive mamas, for a girls weekend in Nashville.  Words cannot properly express how full my heart is.  I felt like this weekend was a dream.  It was much needed.  I love you girls forever and always.

Friday, April 4, 2014

.fashion friday.

Working as a Noonday ambassador has given me the chance to love fashion again.  Shortly after my first trip to Africa, I quit working at GAP.  One of the reasons was because I wanted a job that had more meaning and I didn't think I would find it in fashion.  Thank the Lord I was wrong about that!  Noonday Collection has shown me that I can like fashion and use it for good.  

Noonday Collection has also helped me step out of my comfort zone when it comes to fashion.  This week I am sharing with you one easy way to branch out.  The shirt I wore in these pictures is red, usually I would choose accessories that match completely.  My usual color pallet with this shirt is red, white, and blue - making me an all american!

Now days though you don't have to match 100% - so I went with an orange & turquoise accessories.  A few short months ago this would have bothered me, orange, red, teal????  Now I love it.

Fashion risks don't need to be hard!  They can be as easy as changing out an accessory or two.  Do you usually stick with the same color pallet?  This week give this trend a go & change up your outfit.  You might find it fun and freeing.

Shirt & Jeans: Old Navy

Boots: Naturalizer 

Monday, March 31, 2014

.levi lately.